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as i welcome the new year with gratitude for having lived a very good 2008, i carry with me THE list of what i hope to have, what i want to become this year.  don’t get me wrong, i love my life.  i am surrounded by a dotting family; my husband is still very much in love with me after 11 years and my son is one healthy, happy, good looking (ehem) and intelligent little boy!!  we live in our own house, i drive our own car.  yes, this is a good life and i am very thankful for it.

but (if i may borrow Kirsten Dunst’s famous line as Claudia in the movie INTERVIEW WIT THE VAMPIRE),  ”i want some more“!  this life, no matter how good it is, is not enough for me.  and i think, as long as i am alive, i will never cease wanting for more.  this is not because of selfishness, but rather for self-improvement.  if i become a better me, then i can provide a better relationship to my husband and better care for my son.  if i improve myself, then everything in my world improves too. 

thus i came up with THE list.  this will serve as my guide throughout the year, so that when at times i may become a horrid bitch, i can go back to this list and try to turn from my antagonistic self and be a good little girl. 

so here is my list of what i want to be and to have this year.  and if i don’t get to have them at the end of 2009, life still will go on.  the important thing is that during the 365 days of 2009, i tried to improve my self, my life, and in turn, my son’s and yes, even my husband’s.

THE LIST

1. longer patience
2. less pride
3. sweeter relationship with my husband
4. more passion to know God through the Bible
5. smaller waistline (he he he)
6. discipline for my impulses
7. more showy on how much i love my family (mother, lola, aunts and uncles)
8. to influence at least one family and one friend to accept Jesus Christ as her Saviour
9. ditch my 6-year-old boots (even if it can still be repaired) for a new pair
10. start with my studies (second course)
11. start a small business at home
12. buy a rocking chair, a blender and a tent
13. buy the following books (even if it means scouring all bookstores for these) by my favorite authors:  - MATCH ME IF YOU CAN by susan Elizabeth Phillips; NATURAL BORN CHARMER by Susan Elizabeth Phillips; INHERITANCE CYCLE series 01(ERAGON), 02(ELDEST), 03(BRISINGR) all by Christopher Paolini (these three books must be in hard cover); PETER AND THE STARCATCHERS SERIES by Dave Barry and Ridley Pearson (also in hard cover)

there are still so many areas in my life that i want to improve, still many things to add to this list but i just cant remember what.  for now, these thirteen dreams will do.

now that i have put to writing my list, i better get on practising them.  i may have a hard time doing these things, but in time, i will get the hang of them.  i just need to keep on trying and to never cease praying (for my self.  hehehe).  so help me God.